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Resilience Blues

by Xayra

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1.
WHERE THE HELL WERE YOU? I’VE BEEN WAITING HERE FOR ALMOST SEVEN STARS ALL MY TOYS AROUND BUT PLAYING ALONE IS NOT FUNNY AT ALL I WAS ABOUT TO GIVE UP BUT AFTER ALL I KNEW YOU WOULD COME BACK I’VE GOT A LOT OF THINGS TO TELL BUT FIRST OF ALL LET ME HUG YOU TIGHT WHY WON’T YOU SIT AND TELL ME WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN? AND WHAT THE FUCK WERE YOU DOING WHILE I WAS DROWNING IN MY EYES? BUT DON’T REGRET I’M HAPPY NOW IT’S SUCH A JOY TO SEE YOU HERE AGAIN IT’S BEEN A CHILLING TRIP BUT IN THE END WHAT MATTERS IS TO LAND NOW MY SKIN IS THICKER BUT MY INNER LIGHT IS WARMER THAN EVER LAMP DULL THEN BRIGHT FLANGERS ACROSS THE SKY NOW CLOUDS ARE GONE GROUND IS WET RAGE HAS FLOWN TEARS ARE DRY LET’S GET UP TAKE MY HAND THERE’S SO MUCH WAY LEFT AHEAD NEVERMORE IN THE LIMBO
2.
MY DEWY SLOWCORE PRINCESS IN THESE BROWN STREETS I'M SEARCHING FOR YOU NO I DON'T DESERVE THIS CITY NOR THE LIFE I WAS DREAMING OF YOU'RE EVERYWHERE BUT WHERE AM I? YOU FILL MY HEAD BUT I'M OUT OF SIGHT I KEEP CRAWLING THROUGH THIS PATH DAZZLING EDGES, WOODEN HEART THE RED-HOT BLACKTOP OF MY DESERT RUSTED TANKS OF INNER VOID MISSING PIECES, LOST OLD TOYS I TURN BACK WHAT A DEEP FOG AND I'M SUCH A SQUASHED FLY ON YOUR STEELY SKYLINE HIDE-AND-SEEK WITH MY NERVES SCHIZOID SPARKS BEFORE THE BLACKOUT WHERE IS MY OWN AMERICA? IS THERE SOMETHING CRACKING? HEY LOOK, IT'S ME… TELL IT EVERYBODY
3.
HERE I AM PARALYZED RUNNING ACROSS THIS WATER SWEATING THE SUN AWAY SEARCHING FOR LOST MEMORIES DUST THROUGH MY SIGHT BLINDING MY MUTE EMOTION AVOIDING MY TODAY I PLUMMET INTO MYSELF SOMETIMES I WONDER IF I CLOSE MY EYES MY NIGHT WILL SWALLOW YOUR DAY I THOUGHT I HAD TO DREAM BUT I SEEM TO PREFER TO WASTE MY WASTED TIME EVERYTHING'S SO KNOTTY EVERYTHING'S SO STRANGE EVERYTHING'S SO PAINFUL EVERYTHING'S SO MEANINGLESS I MIGHT BE HAPPY BUT MY SOUL JUST CANNOT STAND THE NOISE OF MY MIND SPIRITUAL PARASITE BLACKMAILING MY DRIED VEINS RAPING MY SOFT CRACKED SHELL SPITTING ON MY FRESH WOUNDS WILL YOU EVER GET BORED AND CUT ME SOME SLACK? WILL YOU GLUT YOUR SICK APPETITE AND LET ME BREATHE? SOMETIMES I REALIZE THAT IT MIGHT BE SO EASY TO STAY SATISFIED I LOOK AT THE BRIGHT OUTSIDE BUT THEN I TURN AWAY AND GAZE AT MY GREY MAYBE I DON'T WANT TO REBORN MAYBE I REFUSE TO BE SAVED MAYBE I WOULD LIKE TO BURN OUT MAYBE I CAN'T DO NOTHING AT ALL I MIGHT BE HAPPY BUT MY HEART JUST CANNOT STAND THE NOISE OF MY BRAIN
4.
SO THIS MUST BE THE NEW DAWN BEYOND MY PREVIOUS SKIN HEAVIER THEN REGRET AND HERE COMES THE NONSENSE WHAT A FLAVOR NEVER TRIED BEFORE HERE'S MY LAST MIND BURNED TO THE GROUND NO HOSTAGE LEFT ALIVE EMPTY LIKE A DEAF EAR DARK AS SUICIDE FRIGHTFUL AS TOMORROW MY ARMS GRASP A GHOST MY FEET NAILED TO THE GROUND MY BONES COLLAPSE, MY FLESH FALLS DOWN MY SPIRIT FADES MY HEART IS SPLIT IN TWO MY VOICE IS GONE WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON? BYE BYE, MYSELF SO THIS MUST BE REALITY WHEN YOUR BRAIN DECIDES TO SWITCH ITSELF OFF SOMETHING NEW, NOT SO GOOD "PSYCHOSIS" WHAT A COOL LEXICON HEALTHY PEOPLE HAVE... AND NOW, WHILE DRIFTING DOWN IN MY TASTELESS TEARS THE CURTAIN DROPPED UPON MY WORLD WHAT CAN I DO, OH WHAT CAN I DO NOW? MAYBE FIGHT MAYBE RUN MAYBE HIDE MAYBE CRY MAYBE SLEEP HEY YOU CRAZY MIRROR WON'T YOU ANSWER ME? I DON'T FELL ANYTHING
5.
ALL THE PIECES TUMBLING DOWN EVERYTHING IS TUMBLING DOWN AND I’M WATCHING, STILL THE PARTY’S BLUSTERING OUTSIDE, FARAWAY AND I’M HERE ALONE AS A DYING STAR, MISSING ANOTHER OCCASION BUT WHO CARES NOW? WHAT MATTERS, NOW?
6.
A JOKE IN THE BEGINNING THEN THE BILL YOU REALIZE THAT IT’S TOO LATE WHEN IT’S TOO LATE NO DISTRACTION ALLOWED NO LESSON LEARNABLE ONLY SORROW ALWAYS THE SAME MISTAKES WHICH DISFIGURE YOUR FACE AND RAPE YOUR SOUL I’M AFRAID I’VE LOST MY TRAIN FEAR HAS A NAME AND YOU DON’T CHOOSE IT HAVE YOU EVER TASTED IT? HOW COULD I’VE BEEN SO STUPID? I WISH I COULD COME BACK
7.
ALL THROUGH THIS DAYDREAM CHEWING SHADOWS I'M THIRSTY GROWING SMALLER AND SMALLER, AS THE SUN GOES DOWN IT'S ALL MIXED UP LYING IN A WHITE STAIN STARING AT THE CRACKS DROPPING INTO TIME THE ONLY RAY, MY E-BOW LIGHT INSIDE AWAY WON'T YOU TEAR MY EYES? I THINK I'VE LOST MY KEYS MAYBE YOU CAN DRIVE ME HOME I REALLY CANNOT STAND UP LET ME REST FOR A WHILE YET LOOK, ALL THE THINGS I'VE LOST OH, THE EARTHQUAKE IT'S EASIER TO ABSOLVE OR TO PUNISH OURSELVES? IN THE END WHEN THE LEVEE BREAKS AND THE RIVER OVERFLOWS NOTHING EVERYWHERE I'M SUCH AN AWKWARD WHAT AM I DOING HERE? LET'S HANDCUFF ME I'LL REPAIR MY BROKEN LIPS AND WAIT FOR HER TONIGHT IS THE NIGHT WILL YOU WAIT FOR ME? PROMISE YOU WON'T LEAVE I SWEAR I'LL TRY TO GET A MOVE ON FLY ME TO WHAT'S BRIGHT AND COOL FLY ME TO CHICAGO HERE'S THAT NOISE AGAIN THE CEILING'S COLLAPSING SPEAK TO ME SPEAK FOR ME
8.
MORNING BREAKS DOWN ON ME SUCH A REWIND EVERY BLOODY DAY I DON'T HEAR REASONINGS MY HANDS ARE FIGHTING EVERYTHING FALLS APART IN THE FREEZING LAVA WHERE OBSESSIONS SWIM ONE SINGLE CARD MISSING CAN DESTROY ALL THE CASTLE YOU GOTTA CHOOSE TO LIVE OR TO SOLVE BUT THE MUD NEVER RESTS 'CAUSE A DEFENCE’S NOT A PARDON AT ALL IT'S LIKE SKATING ON THE TOP OF A CRUMBLING MOUNTAIN AND PRETENDING THAT THE MIST CONCEALS NO GROUND OR THAT THE GROUND AFTER ALL IS NOT SO TOUGH YOU CAN’T BE HOSTAGE, JAILER AND SAVIOR AT THE SAME TIME YOU CAN’T TAKE TIME WHEN GUNS ARE POINTED AND THERE'S NO WAY TO RUN AWAY LIQUID REALITY SUCH A BUZZ THIN WHITE NOISE SPLASHING AROUND IN THIS SWEET SWAMP CLAPPING SKINLESS HANDS AT A TURNED OFF SUN THAT LOOKS JUST LIKE A METEOR LIKE A LAST NIGHT GLIDE UPON ME AND GIMME SOMETHING REALLY SPECIAL 'CAUSE MY GRUFF BREATH IS SCRATCHING MY THROAT LIKE A RAZOR DISARM MY MIND BEFORE SHE PULLS MY TRIGGER IT'S HARD WHEN YOUR MUNITION IS YOUR OWN BLOOD IT'S HARD WHEN IN THE GUNSIGHT YOU SEE YOURSELF AND YOUR FINGERS SHUDDER JUST PUT YOUR SOFT WRENCH BETWEEN MY GRIMY GEARS JUST THROW YOUR VIVID FOAM UPON MY PALE FIRE AND BY THE WAY THINGS ARE GOOD, ALAS BUT NOT FAIR AT ALL
9.
NO SOIL NO HOMELAND NO WOMB NO BLOOD WHERE DO I BELONG? WHAT AM I STRUGGLING FOR? LIKE A FINLESS SHARK NO SENSE IN SWIMMING GOODS AND FEELS HELD TO RANSOM SCALPEL WITHOUT ANESTHETIC CRUEL, FRISKY GRAVITY I'LL END BROKEN APART I'M CHOCKING WITH MY OWN BREATH I'M FREEZING IN MY OWN HEAT NO PLEASURE AT ALL BUT STILL ROAMING NO PLEASURE AT ALL
10.
IT'S MY FAULT A WRECKED SHIP I'VE RUINED IT ALL IT COULD HAVE BEEN SO HARMLESS I FAILED AT ALL JUST YESTERDAY SO PACKED WITH SAP NOW I'M A STARVING ROOT WITHOUT THAT LIGHT I'M LESS THAN NOTHING AND NOW, I'M AFRAID THAT LIGHT'S FUCKING MISSING… TO HOLD ON NO STUMBLING BLOCK BUT NOW, WHAT FOR? WHAT GOOD IS KEEP LIVING WHEN YOU'RE YOURSELF NO MORE? I KNEW IT COULD HAVE BEEN HARD TO WIN BUT OH, SUCH A DEFEAT I CAN HARDLY BLINK MY EYES BETTER TO KEEP THEM SHUT FOREVER TOO SERIOUS TOO SHALLOW TOO PATIENT TOO HARSH TOO KIND TOO CRUEL TOO CAREFUL TOO RUSHING WHAT A MESS… WHAT IF I BITE MY OWN VEINS AND DIE BY CHOCKING WHILE SWALLOWING THEM?
11.
SO CONFUSED I DON’T GET IT OH MY BUT IF YOU THINK IT MAKES SENSE FOR ME, WELL, IT’S ALRIGHT LOOK OUTSIDE ALL THAT WASTED LIGHT BUT IN THE END THERE’S JUSTICE AFTER ALL, I’M SATISFIED DON’T YOU THINK IT’S CURIOUS THE MORE WE’RE HAPPY THE MORE WE COMPLAIN AND WE FEEL MORE UNCERTAIN WHEN THE SOLUTION IS NEAR SOME INCIDENTS MAY SAVE YOUR LIFE AND THE SOLUTION IS OFTEN IN THE PROBLEM ITSELF I’M LOOKING FOR FREEDOM, NOT FOR PRUDENCE A MISTAKE DOESN’T MEAN YOU’RE GUILTY ALSO WARRIORS NEED TO REST THERE’S NO NEED TO WHIP YOURSELF ONE DAY EVERYTHING WILL BE CLEAR MEANWHILE, WHY NOT TAKING A BREATH SAVE THE GOOD ONE, THROW THE BAD ONE THE SKY WAS JUST BEHIND OUR TEARS THERE’S SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL FOR ME, SOMEWHERE I’LL CARRY MY BAG AND LOOK THROUGH THE SUN

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released November 21, 2015

written, arranged and performed by XAYRA
produced by FABIO GRANDE & XAYRA
recorded and mixed by FABIO GRANDE at GLI ARTIGIANI STUDIO, Rome, Italy, June 2015
mastered by CARL SAFF at SAFF MASTERING, Chicago, Illinois, September 2015
recording and mixing assistance by PIETRO PAROLETTI

XAYRA consists of:
GIAN MARIO BACHETTI bass
ITALO RAGNO drums
COSTANTINO RAGNO electric guitars
MASSIMILIANO SPERI electric guitars, acoustic guitar, piano, synthesizer, harmonica, vocals

FABIO GRANDE played piano on track 07, synthesizer on track 05 and sang backing vocals on track 03
LORENZO AUTORINO sang backing vocals on track 04
JIMMY FROM OHIO played synthesizer on track 09

cover photos by MAXIMILIEN RIGAUT
artwork by MARCO CLAUDIO TRECCA
printed by STUDIO 80

XAYRA wishes to thanks: Fabio Grande, Pietro Paroletti, Carl Saff, Lorenzo Autorino, Maurizio Loffredo, Daniele Sinigallia, Francesco Di Bella, Jacopo Incani, Jeff Tweedy, Marco Claudio Trecca, Francesco Mauro

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